Let’s see where we go tonight…, I can surely feel the waves crashing on the shore. I’m writing to express myself, I’m writing to stretch out. I’m writing because it moves something in me that is still. I’m writing because sometimes I take myself too seriously. I’m writing because I need a good laugh. I’m writing because I like it…. And as I typically say on with the pouring out of words. …..But not tonight.
Tonight I will write in my journal, on a piece of paper in a book. Because there, no one will judge me, no one will even know what I wrote. My thoughts and opinions will remain private. How could anyone ever possibly know what I’ve written down there. There are no Internet trolls or fake profiles. There will be no cyber bullies, no one else’s feelings that I have to worry about hurting or offending. I can really just be me.… But you know what? Why should I care what you think and furthermore why should you care what I think.
Is this America? Am I allowed to be free to write what I want on my own blog? I have about six or eight followers for which I am very grateful. But for some reason so many other people know what I write here. Funny how that works, but I’m the one that’s not being authentic, even though I’m the one who’s bearing my soul out here. I’m the one who is trying to share my personal experiences and struggles in the hopes that someone will relate. I’m being very honest about who I am. I’m not hiding anything. I am me and I have always been. I am a child of God, a divine being. And my value, my worth and my sovereignty have been rock solid since the day I was born.
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I set you apart
and appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
6“Ah, Lord GOD,” I said, “I surely do not know how to speak, for I am only a child!”
7But the LORD told me:
“Do not say,
‘I am only a child.’
For to everyone I send you,
you must go,
and all that I command you,
you must speak.
8Do not be afraid of them,
for I am with you to deliver you,”